just ignore this

I’m sick.

I have this addiction that’s killing me

I know the cure but I can’t afford it

I’m desperate to get out of this horrible abbys before it’s too late

 

an Old Man and his Wedding Ring

This afternoon I went to the bus stop after work. I saw an old man waiting for the bus to Sebaldsbrück, the same bus I take everyday. I often see him on the way to the office or on the way home. He looks like any other industry worker, his backpack, his shoes, his blue uniform, all looks as usual, but I noticed something today. He didn’t wear his gloves so I could see his wedding ring.

It reminded me of how precious to have someone very special in your life. This first person you see every time you wake up, and the person you kiss goodnight. who would be there beside you in the up and down. Sitting in front of computer for hours, talking with different people, analyzing a lot of data, making some experiment can make you dead tired at the end of the day. And I know, his work is much harder than mine. And it would be wonderful to go home and have someone waiting for us at home. wouldn’t it be great to have someone cook us comforting dinner in this cold winter night?

For me, the most romantic love storry is not one of romeo and juliet. It’s theirs, who grow old together. They have successfully surpassed all the problems, the differences, the ego and they still have each other after so long. Isn’t that romantic?

The Beauty of Autumn

The leaves were all turned gold and fell. The fog comes more often at night and dawn. If we’re lucky, the sun would shine and erase the gray color. The winter is coming closer. luckily, I captured the beauty of autumn last month.

I’m an intern

I now, it’s been such a long time. I even wished I got the password right when I signed in. lol

I’m already in the higher semester now, and currently doing my internship in a second largest food company group I thank God for that. There are 10 people in my department, 4 of them are interns, but at the end of the month, one of my colleague will be leaving. By then he will finish his 3 months internship. I’m sad because he’s one of the friendliest person in the house, but I’m happy for him too.

actually, everybody here is nice. We shake hand every morning with a big smile, it’s not like meeting your boss or your advisor, it feels like meeting your old friends. Everything is new and interesting to me, but I kinda left jobless, because it’s autumn holiday for school, that’s why everyone who has children is now in vacation, including my advisor.

Anyway, there are a lot to learn, since the life here is so different than the student life I’ve been living this couple years. I hope I can begin to work with my own project soon, I know the next several months will be precious and exciting, I’m really enjoying my time here

 

have you ever kissed someone you don’t love?

if yes, you’ve got to help me answer this question. why?

you see, someone close to me kissed someone he didn’t love, and I didn’t expect that and quite surprised because I know he loved someone else much more then the girl he kissed. what do you think? is it okay to kiss someone while you love someone else? and why do you think you’d do that?

is it because curiosity? is it being realistic (because you can’t kiss the one you love the most)?

Starry, starry night

Miss my time at high school when I took part in the astronomy OSN preparation. I used to go to planetarium every day, trying to solve the tasks for 7 hours, and maybe at the weekend got the chance for star party. My favorite time was in the spherical room with projector in the center of it as we trained to remember all the constellations.

This feeling of envy consumed me, because it seems that everybody got to do what they like. You see, I’m surrounded by people talented in music. I can hear them singing and I can see their happy and proud faces. Even I can feel their contentment when they’re singing. But I can’t. I can’t do what this heart wants me to do. Even it’s difficult just to find a friend to discuss about the star and other thing in the sky.

I looked for an astronomy club or something like that in my town but I couldn’t find it. And it’s kind of difficult to observe sky since I don’t have any telescope and I forget how to operate it. But I’m grateful I still can see the sky and its beauty. Maybe it’s time to search for a new passion. But astronomy will always be my passion.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze, Reflect in Vincent’s eyes of china blue

Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist’s loving hand.

Vincent (Starry Starry Night)

Never Ending Winter

It’s March, but it’s still snowing. Actually I like snow, they’re pretty, and soft, and winter can never be complete without it.

It’s the 2nd week of exam term. I took chemistry exam this afternoon, was kinda difficult. Almost everybody cursed as we walked out the class. Some cursed the exam the other cursed the weather. haha. I have 3 days until my next and last exam of the semester. I’m really looking forward to it, cause the next semester will be the so called “Hauptstudium”. So our notes will be on the transcript. Until now we only have to pass, the notes hasn’t been really the matter. Time to get serious!

Campus Life

Like any other college students, Monday isn’t my favorite day. I don’t hate Monday though. Monday is good if I want to forget something or just stay away from any annoying thoughts. Because Monday is simply… exhausting yet fun

You see, every Monday I have 5 long blocks of lectures (1 Block = 90 minutes), I have 15 minutes break between each blocks, most of the time the lectures are not located in the same building, so practically I spend the precious 15 minutes only to go to the next lecture, I can barely buy something to eat. Well, in the lunch break you’ve got to hurry to the canteen (we call it Mensa here in Germany) to avoid that lousy long line. Just try to imagine, queuing with noisy hungry stomach and a backpack full of books in windy  -5°C temperature, and a gray sky. Not a very pleasant thing to do everyday. But you can have a nice small talk with your classmate to forget the nasty winter weather. but personally most of the time we were just cursing the the weather or the long endless blocks ahead of us.

we finish all the class at 17:00, that means I have 3 hours before aerobics training. that’s right! sport exercise at night. we simply don’t have the time in the morning or in the afternoon, and I’m just too lazy to do anything on the weekend. It’s free facility from the ASTA (some kind of student association) so we have our own trainer.

I usually got home at 22:00 and can’t wait for a hot shower. I don’t have the energy to learn or to do anything else. Beside, I have to be at the campus before 8 am on the next day, so I just go to bed or go cuddling my boyfriend

Christmas Market

My boots got broken few days ago, so yesterday me and my roommate went to Bremen to look for a new pair. I waited for her until she finish her work at 5 pm. Then we went downtown. It was frigging cold but we decided to walk, because we like the Christmas atmosphere, the shops were all full, the passages were crowded, and the street was full of decoration.

after we had dinner, we checked a few shops, but I just haven’t found what I was looking for, so we went to Cathedral where the Christmas market was held. there were a lot of huts where people sold a lot of kind of food, most of them were Glühwein (special drink for Christmas), candies, sweets, fruits, toys, candles, you can find a lot of things for Christmas gift there.

because it was soooo crowded that we had difficulty to walk, we drop in a small English cafe, it was so small, we were lucky to get a place to sit, I ordered white chocolate, and a cheese cake, while my roommate had cappuccino, so we end up talking all the time, instead of finding a pair of new boots,

My Sister said…

jaman skrg jgn cari tampang, tapi cari hati,
org “tidak tampan” biasanya jaga hati,
orang tampan lebih sering makan ati hahahaha